Will she be my backbone? Could she really weather this storm?
She had promised. I felt hopeless, I was alone.
I didn't leave my dorm today and Nicky didn't call or visit to find out why. I wasn't in the mood for anything because I had decisions to make. I could understand Nicky distancing herself from me. I had let her down, broken the trust she had in me and shook her belief. I wonder what she sees when she remembers or looks at me. The last I saw her was that day...that beautiful day that the cat was let out, the day I was at peace. We had parted in an awkward way, she tried to hide her emotions but I could read her like an open book. I missed her. I wanted to know what she thought of me now and the only way to find out is to read her diary. It was a bad idea but I was desperate.
I was almost two weeks gone. I had to think to fast. My Parents. The baby. Eddie.
I laid on my bed, thought hard for a few seconds and made up my mind....
She had promised. I felt hopeless, I was alone.
I didn't leave my dorm today and Nicky didn't call or visit to find out why. I wasn't in the mood for anything because I had decisions to make. I could understand Nicky distancing herself from me. I had let her down, broken the trust she had in me and shook her belief. I wonder what she sees when she remembers or looks at me. The last I saw her was that day...that beautiful day that the cat was let out, the day I was at peace. We had parted in an awkward way, she tried to hide her emotions but I could read her like an open book. I missed her. I wanted to know what she thought of me now and the only way to find out is to read her diary. It was a bad idea but I was desperate.
I was almost two weeks gone. I had to think to fast. My Parents. The baby. Eddie.
I laid on my bed, thought hard for a few seconds and made up my mind....
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